I was ment to be alone. I’m tired of my useless efforts to be social and have friends. I am once again becoming the girl that sits by herself at lunch because she’s not pretty enough or good at talking to people. This is probably for the best
are a child playing with matches and I have a paper body.
You will meet a girl with a softer voice and stronger arms and she
will not have violent secrets or an affection for red wine or eyes
that never stay dry. You will fall into her bed and I’ll go back
to spending Friday nights with boys who never learn my last name.
I have chased off every fool who has tried to sleep beside me
You think it’s romantic to fuck the girl who writes poems about you.
You think I’ll understand your sadness because I live inside my own.
But I will show up at your door at 2 am, wild-eyed and sleepless.
and try and find some semblance of peace in your breastbone
and you will not let me in. You will tell me to go home." — (via clementinevonradics)
(via buttzandstuffz)
I really want to go to Pratt but it’s in New York so I won’t be with my best friend, but if I go to a school in Arizona, I’m scared I won’t have as many opportunities and I’ll crash and burn. I’m so confused and uh this is so horrible please kill me.
I want to love and hug and kiss everyone but, I honestly believe that I wasn’t meant to be with anyone. Its hard for me to express my feelings to people. I don’t feel like I was meant for the romantics. I have such a hard time staying in one place and I just want to move away and go somewhere new where no one knows me. I’ll always be lonely and unsatisfied with everything. I need to disappear for a while.
I’m terribly lost and afraid. I believe I’m losing myself and losing touch with reality. It’s a strange numbness, almost as if I’m on autopilot and I can’t seem to gain control. What’s wrong with me? I have no idea what to do.
I really just love being told that my weight makes me undesirable
Everyone I have and will be friends with is better than me in every single way. I know that sounds selfish, but I’m just so tired of not being good enough for anyone or anything.
It’s great to know that the only reason you keep me around is so you won’t be alone
